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Why won't they leave me alone?

It started this afternoon. Phone calls asking me for information that people should have been interested in MONTHS ago. I told them what they wanted to know, and told them that I had resigned, and I wasn't involved anymore.

Nobody listened to me months in advance, so it's their own fucking fault when they can't turn the juggernaut around at the last minute.

And then I got the email, telling me the liar and thief had been elected to the national board. It told me who I could talk to if I wanted details. I don't want details, I replied. I've left, and I've left because nobody was interested in stopping this from happening. They've all made their own beds, and now they can fucking well sleep in them.

I'm tired of participating in an organization pretending it's about helping students when it's really about alumni members manipulating their own little empires. I'm done. I'm through. I tendered my resignation two weeks ago, so leave me the fuck alone.

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Oh, and for those who will tell me that it's been four years, and I should get over it, I have one response: No. It's been TEN years, and nothing anybody has shown me even remotely suggests that I should get over it. My big regret is that I allowed myself to be hoodwinked into running, thus making it impossible for me to speak up personally about my disgust. I pity all the people he's taken with his disingenuity. Eventually, they'll realize their mistake, but I don't plan to stick around to see it happen.

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aphiorogue
Dec. 30th, 2004 06:14 pm (UTC)
i am sorry *hugs*

packy
Dec. 30th, 2004 08:14 pm (UTC)
Don't feel sorry for me. Feel sorry for the organization that's lost it's moral compass and can't past it's own self-preservation.

I loved that fraternity. Now it makes me sick.
aphiorogue
Dec. 30th, 2004 08:29 pm (UTC)
and that my friend - is what I am sorry over. I feel you are a tremendous brother and am glad to have callsed you such. you got me thru some tough times. I know what the brotherhood meant to you - and am so sorry you are so hurt by it.

packy
Dec. 31st, 2004 07:02 am (UTC)
I'm not a brother anymore, and I'm not sure anymore that I ever was. I have to believe that either I'm the one who's out of sync with Frank Reed Horton's dream, or the entirety of the alumni staff are. It's much easier to believe that I'm the one who's crazy.
mr_smeggers
Dec. 31st, 2004 06:45 am (UTC)
And thats why you need to keep fighting.

You can't let the asshats win.
packy
Dec. 31st, 2004 06:58 am (UTC)
No, I'm sick of fighting the good fight. All you do is fight the good fight, and meanwhile the asshats slowly grab off more and more power for themselves. Mark my words: give this man another decade, he'll be the president of the organization. The fact that he stole thousands of dollars from the organization will either be forgotten or celebrated as the redeemption of a man who repented his sins and chose to confess them (which he didn't--he was caught and made to confess against his will).

It seems like the only way to fight the asshats is to BECOME an asshat, and frankly, I'm not ready to compromise my principles. So I'm out. It's about damn fucking time I stopped wasting energy on what's best for everybody else and started spending a little energy on what's best for ME. And what's best for me is to not have to stand helplessly by as this organization betrays the principles that made me love it in the first place.
sadao
Dec. 31st, 2004 08:51 am (UTC)
...can I beat up the asshat? (And by beat up, I mean go up to him in a mall or something and make angry-sad kicked puppy faces at him until security has me removed. That's pretty much the only physical weapon I have, anyway.)
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packy
Jan. 9th, 2005 06:17 pm (UTC)
I'd rather not say. I don't want to give the organization any more publicity. Besides, the fault of the organization being fucked up lies at the top, not down at the bottom where most of the good work is done. Though, I can't help but think that things would be better at the bottom levels where everything counts if they had better examples at the top.
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